I have no reason for these sites anymore, I keep attempting to keep up with them but the truth is no one is effected in the slightest by this shit. I am done and I give up. My best friends who i love with all my heart barely know whats going on with me and have not even made attempts to contact me. Its always me reaching out to others. Bullshit. I have a friend who is suicidal right now, and I often talk her down and do everything i can to calm her worries and let her know that she is loved and there is more to life than the trauma she has gone through. Sometimes I think though, who the fuck would talk me down, who would be there to tell me not to take this sword right over here and just shove it through my throat. Im sick of people pretending to care and telling me I mean so fucking much to them. And then I never hear from them again until I GO TO THEM.
I am in such financial crisis right now along with my family. We have very little help and no where to turn. I wanted to at least be able to say “well at least I have the loving support of my”
I dont even know who I can honestly call a friend anymore…
1 year ago
..the fact that im slowly growing bitter and spiteful toward everyone i care about. I love how Im getting about as depressed as I was in highschool and wished I wouldnt wake up when I went to sleep.
I dont have any real friends. Im starting to realize this. And its making me question why I bother getting up in the morning. Im epileptic and poor and only getting poorer. My dad lost his job, my mom and aunt are both idiots who spend money and cause stress. I just dont know what to do with myself anymore I was going to join the fucking gym yesterday. I didnt. I was going to go to sports authority today and get some clothes for working out and then pop over and get my gym membership….I havent yet and probably wont.
When did it become a bad thing to tell someone how you feel. I fucking must have missed that memo. And how exactly do you get to know a girl you care for without then becoming her friend and then getting god damn friend zoned. Where is the mother fucking common sense in that. Im so tired of being told that “i dont see you that way” “you’re just a good friend” “i dont want to lose your friendship”. Im sorry that im the only person in the fucking world that seems to think love is worth taking chances for.
I dont even know how to feel about anything anymore. I feel so numb. Like nothings important and yet it seems like lately everything is super important and urgent. I dont want to have to do this anymore. I just want things to go smoothly….just for like a week. Why cant I be happy for at least a single fucking week. I havent had a steady girlfriend in almost 3 years. I have no support system, my “friends” wouldnt know what the fuck was happening with me if I didnt say something on god damn facebook. So just whats the fucking point. I keep jumping from one issue to another I cant even stay on a single topic more than a few sentences. Im done. Fuck life.
~your friend Mike
2 years ago
I saw a friend from my school years last night. We had a blast. I think i’ve remade a friend for life. Plus shes a gamer!!! Fucking awesome right? We traded gamertags bwahaha
2 years ago
