I have no reason for these sites anymore, I keep attempting to keep up with them but the truth is no one is effected in the slightest by this shit. I am done and I give up. My best friends who i love with all my heart barely know whats going on with me and have not even made attempts to contact me. Its always me reaching out to others. Bullshit. I have a friend who is suicidal right now, and I often talk her down and do everything i can to calm her worries and let her know that she is loved and there is more to life than the trauma she has gone through. Sometimes I think though, who the fuck would talk me down, who would be there to tell me not to take this sword right over here and just shove it through my throat. Im sick of people pretending to care and telling me I mean so fucking much to them. And then I never hear from them again until I GO TO THEM.
I am in such financial crisis right now along with my family. We have very little help and no where to turn. I wanted to at least be able to say “well at least I have the loving support of my”
I dont even know who I can honestly call a friend anymore…
1 year ago